Our Shades of Grey

Friends? Nah. We aren’t just friends. Maybe being just friends is a bit too dark. But we aren’t lovers either. Maybe being in love is a bit too bright. Half-girlfriend? It’s a cliche. We lie somewhere in between breaking the cliches, beautifying the grey shade, having something between us that’s too mundane to be labelled or titled yet magical enough to hold us on both ends.

Life isn’t a game of chess. Blacks and whites are often hypothetical. Picking up a side is theoretical. Look at us; you lie there with your own little insecurities you inherit from your past, and me, with my worries about my future. Maybe we are just two passengers on a ferry waiting for the other end to arrive, knowing that it will not last forever. Maybe we just represent the logarithmic function; we do not exist at the extremities. We are just legit between your zero and my infinity.

So let us not waste time picking sides and labeling things that aren’t meant to. Let us not just wait for the other end to arrive. Let us turn the slope of this function into a roller coaster ride. Let us just not exist but live this small eternity. Let me pick you and let you pick me and let us be together if not ‘forever’ but at least ‘always’.

~Vikalp Joshi